Waking up

Hello,
 This is my first post :) and i'm kind of excited, but...also a little nervous, when I think of things i want to write, i'm always like i should blog! now i'm here sitting at my desk and everything i wanted to write about has completely left my brain! I just hate when that happens! I need to start writing my ideas down, my thoughts, my feelings :) Everything! but i'm so forgetful!! ahh what a predicament haha

Well i'm sure once i get used to this i'll have plenty of interesting things to write about.

At the moment i'm just sitting here listening to my mom and my grandma bicker, and its not because they are arguing over something, no...They just communicate like that, with harsh tones and snippy comments...
But why!? I don't want to be like them, but it seems like sometimes i am!
I can be such a smart ass, and mean, rude, but who doesn't do those things....right? Everyone has emotions, not just ONE but multiple different emotions, so it's ok to feel anger, sadness, happiness, confusion? i think confusion is a feeling....you know, like "omg, i feel SO confused, what do i do!?" yeaaa haha just like that :D
SO what can i do when i feel like something is wrong with me? I always wonder, am I the only one struggling with this...? or am i the only one who feels this way, or thinks this? but i'm not...right? ;) hehe

I woke up this morning feeling sick, once the tummy ache went away I felt so awake, and in a good mood :) i liked it, i got my 8 hours of sleep, got dressed and out the door with my boyfriend, but somehow, now matter HOW early i try to wake up, we always walk out the door running 5 minutes late haha Its just IMPOSSIBLE for us to leave on time, and before i Never had that problem, i was always annoyingly early to things! I'd always get nervous before having to get somewhere so i'd show up a little early to be the first and see what i needed to expect, and that was for everything, even just hanging out with friends, if i'm not i start getting that weird feeling in my stomach, and i start getting nervous, but why!? even simple things like going out to dinner with a friend, or just going to work, i'd get that horrible nervous feeling. Fortunately though thats changed a little but not so much, especially if i'm alone, which is why i wonder....is there something wrong with me???